.

“Narrative, you say, is just one way of navigating time.

And those perceptions culled
by the restraints of narrative
become available to other trajectories.

Meanwhile, the future blows toward us without handholds. It is a gaping. An already. A maw.

What happens when the mind is no longer a place of duration?

If you want to resuscitate your destiny, you joked early in our relationship, start with the present…”

Past Log Updates

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Resources

Standalone post link: Reading Log: Mojave Ghost

Decided to start posting again and push my updates to micro.blog and then to a bluesky account I set up. Thinking about pushing to Threads as well, but not pulling the trigger on that yet.

Now to see whether it works like I hope it will, wether I stick with it or get scared, whether I actually want anyone in the world to be aware of my weird little website.

Edit: spent too much time today playing around with this. I don’t know why some of the posts work and some look funky, and I’m not entirely sure why I’m doing this actually. I should just read stuff and email people or whatever?

Standalone post link: on posting updates again, and pushing to some social media sites

I’ve forgotten and failed everything meta I meant to do. I’m afraid to look at this website, I’m afraid to look at my notes, I’m afraid to look at the stacks of books on and around my desk, I’m afraid to look back at all my open tabs.

Just keep stacking it on, I guess? Open more tabs. Continue to live my life occasionally and a little bit, with no commentary or performance.

Except this, I guess.

Standalone post link: Open More Tabs

Robin Sloan’s mini-site around Moonbound is so great.

Welcome to the Dragon Moon

This afternoon, after I finished reading Moonbound, I read pretty much everything that is posted there so far (looks like there is more to come.)

I’m excited to see where he goes with this series next, and his virtual book tour broke my heart a little bit when he talked about his book not becoming a bestseller despite his hustle, because I recognized that though I have a parasocial connection with this author, following his newsletter for years and feeling like I know him, I didn’t even come through with a pre-order on this book for him. Some kind of parasocial imaginary friend I am.

I’m relieved he seems to be proceeding with this series, despite our collective neglect. I hope his publisher feels the same way, and I hope he’s right that it will be a slowly percolating success.

I intend to re-read it with my son if he’ll let me, as soon as we’re finished with The Wild Robot Protects.

P.S. My son for his own “challenge” read for school is starting in on that very massive Earthsea omnibus which Sloan shows in a post about Le Guin on the site.

Standalone post link: Moonbound MIni-Site, and the Failures of Even My Parasocial Connections

I made two syrups this afternoon - chocolate and lavender

(I guess technically they are chocolate-vanilla and lavender-vanilla syrups)

Went by these recipes (two-recipe split view, since I did them at the same time in two different sauce pans)

• Easy Homemade Chocolate Syrup Recipe
• Lavender Syrup Recipe | Gimme Some Oven (but I added a tablespoon of vanilla)

Standalone post link: Two Syrups

Now

• rewilding my front yard
• working at the same job I have had for fourteen years
• reading a bunch of wild shit
• walking around my neighborhood without my dog, sometimes for miles and miles

Next

• develop a consistent writing/making practice
• sort out the listening log on this site
• sort out everything else on this site
• be social on the web again
• go on some wilderness adventures in the fall

This reflects my ‘now’ page update of September 2, 2024. Please visit that main now page to see my dynamic log galleries, as well as an archive of prior and newer ‘now’ updates.

Credit for the ‘now’ page concept goes to Derek Sivers. I tend to get aspirational when I update it, so I’ve decided to embrace that by calling it ‘now and next.’

Standalone post link: Now and Next (September 1, 2024)

Will and I watched Back to the Future tonight. Literally dated film, but it’s still great.

This was my suggestion. I’ve decided to try to be a little more pro-active about sharing different kinds of films and music and food and stuff with my kids, rather than just always sitting back and letting them watch whatever they’re used to.

Standalone post link: Watching Log: Back to the Future

I can
do
whatever
I
want
here

Last December I opened a fresh notebook and started with this entry. It is kind of my current thesis statement for having a website, being on the internet, trying to make stuff, etc. I haven’t followed through with these ideas so far, but I feel like putting it up on the website is a start.

(A text transcription follows the notebook scan images.)

I can
do
whatever
I
want
here

[sketch¹ - self-portrait of sorts, though no beard]

I should probably remember or remind myself that I met Gin² because I wrote a blog about random stuff I was interested in

I’ve been so jaded but creating and sharing stuff on the internet is maybe probably still a worthwhile endeavor

notice I didn’t say “social media”
but I kind of mean social media but also not
media that can be social?
media that can build connection, understanding, community?
isn’t that all good media? digital or analog? art? do I mean art?

I think maybe what I really mean
by all of this
is
art?

Going to let that sit here and see how it feels in the coming days

creating things and sharing things

to

express myself
have fun / play around with
words
ink
pixels
code
images
video
sounds
connect with other people
make and do interesting things
learn stuff
make the world better somehow? (too much to ask)
“generalist”

art basically
or being human
in a good way
“the humanities”

[it is well]
[the evening and the morning
were the first day]
[light] [salt]
[life] [death]
[growth] [decay]
[seeds] [trees]
[air] [breath] [vacuum]
[nebula] [supernova]
[creation through destruction]³⁴

2023-12-17 after 11:30pm

Notes

Standalone post link: I Can Do Whatever I Want Here

I saw several fish swimming in the creek¹ this morning, as many as eight to twelve. A grey ghostly shadowed slow shimmering of fins and scales in a protected pocket of murky water beneath the rough old rock wall, across on the neighbor’s side.² I didn’t think I could capture them sufficiently in a photograph or video, especially at that distance.

They looked a little sickly or diseased to me, but perhaps I am projecting that onto them because the creek smells foul these days, and I understand it to be somewhat polluted, both from readings (see link in¹ below) and past personal observations³. In actuality I guess these fish are flourishing? I’ll check on them again soon.

Standalone post link: Murky Shimmer | Picture Not Taken

‘You have new memories of your relatives’ [Email Notification]

‘See memories’ [Action]

Not sure how this actually works, but I’m curious and a bit creeped out on the concept of receiving “new memories” and being notified about them via an email message.

Personal revelation? Phone as urim and thummim? The whisperings of the holy spirit via a neural interface?

Standalone post link: You Have New Memories